So I'm done with yet another semester of school. Didn't too bad, didn't do too well. I'm at home and it's not very fun. The dentist said 9 more months of braces. :S not cool. I wonder how going to LA for the summer will affect that... I hope Christmas is good. I need a pick-me-up. I still feel really lonely. I need someone to love. I've been busy (well not strenuously busy) putting together the extended version of "A Superhero" and I also made a gag reel from the shorts I shot this summer. It's pretty funny, I think. Hopefully I'll have that online soon. I had to compress the hell out of it. Hopefully I can also start on recording some new songs. I miss being a rock star lol. That was so much fun. I've missed my guitar. I haven't even had time to play it since I've been home. Been running errands and babysitting and what not. Gotta love the old life. Things to look forward to: Going back to Austin!, Summer in LA!, The HOT Apartment I'll have next year! Good things, good things...

So the semester is almost officially over. Finals and then that's it. I really can't believe it. It went by way too fast. I'm getting more and more depressed. Everything's looking up, but I'm just so bored of everything. I feel so lonely. But ah, que sera sera, and I don't even know how that applies to this situation. I'm waiting around to go to John's party. I wish I did more partying this semester. Next semester I definitely will. You're only young once. College will never happen again. It's almost halfway over. That scares me. In other news, I got into the UTLA program! So yay! I'll be spending this summer in LA! I haven't announced this to my 'rents yet, lol. Anyway, it should be exciting, I've been dying to feel excited by it. I'm happy I got in, but I'm not bouncing off the walls just yet. I shot a movie for 318, it's called "A Superhero." It's not great, but the extended version I haven't edited should be better. The version I turned in was so random and weird. Anyway gotta run!

It is a sad sad day. It was horrible watching the election results. I was completely shocked that Bush took the popular vote. I just don't understand. Was all of America drunk these past 4 years? Well they must have been to deal with the monstrosity of this administration. I was ready to have a stroke last night. It's a sad sad day for the entire world. I guess on the positive side, we can see the failure of the Iraq War, the failure of the War on Terror, the failure of Homeland Security, etc. and after the next 4 years everyone will look back with shame on this administration. I feel so powerless. So voiceless. I can only wonder where my age group was, why didn't they make more of a difference? Where were my 'gente'? Why didn't they stand up and vote? I'm just so distraught. I'm hoping that when every vote is counted, we'll have a tie. I don't believe America would be stupid enough to reelect George Bush. I'm disappointed in Texas. Well I know Democrats in TX had no shot with redistricting, but Texans should have known better than to give in to that. It's extremely sad and I can't think of anything truly positive. I guess I'll leave off with this awesome video that could make me an Eminem fan. Mosh.

It's been a pretty interesting weekend. I just turned 20! Wow....i am an adult....My birthday was friday and we were supposed to have a nie elegant dinner, like adults, but almost everyone cancelled on me, but it's ok, it turned fine :) It was a crazy day and we ended pushing our reservation back to like 9:30. And when Diana and I showed up hold our table, the parking lot at the restaurant smelled like crap and the waiter told us they were closing at 10. Turned out their pipes bursted and so we ended up going to Johnny Carrino's. It was fun. The cake was great. Good good stuff.

Whoa, I've been meaning to update this for a while, I just never get around to it. Life has been pretty uneventful lately. A lot of the same old stuff. I have a sound project to do for my film class. I can't think of ANYTHING that would be good enough! It's totally killing me. I have to buckle down on this. Me and Karla are gonna work on our projects this weekend. So I have to come up with a plan by tomorrow! Being a filmmajor is so hard :( I also need to get a job. I'm going broke! Anyway....not much else to talk about. There's not much I'm interested in sharing right now...I think for my 2005 thoughts page, I'm gonna go with an online journal, it seems so much easier. I'll prolly just do something like LiveJournal or something. Well...I guess that's all I have to say....

It's Saturday morning. I'm sitting here...bored pretty much. Anyway, much to catch up on. I finished my 4 movies, yay! Of course that happened a couple of weeks ago. I got permission from sonaBLAST! records to use Mark Geary's song "Adam & Eve" (Remember Mark Geary kids? Check out my SXSW pix!) and I was frickin' ecstatic for a few days. I've already burned copies of the movies for everyone, except I haven't sent Robert his :S Oops! I've showed them to a few people. Friends of course. And I'm hearing some good things, but the real test will definitely be showing them to people who don't even know me. I also recorded "The Air" but I need to go back and polish up the vocals. I don't know when cos I feel a little awkward doing that in a dorm where everyone will be able to hear me lol. anyway, I think the song sounds much better than the old ones. Definitely more structured and I'm not sure about the vocals, I've noticed my voice is deeper so I think I have less range :S but I hit more notes than I did on the older stuff. I'm not sure what else to say....my roomie's asleep and I'm probably bothering him with my typing! lol Aight, peace out!

I guess I'm making this a monthly installment thing lol. Well I've kept a little busy. Got work :S ugh it sucks! I wish I had a job I enjoyed and one that actually paid well! Been babysitting and I'm ready to hang myself. Today we were supposed to wrap on Los Chisos. But I'm finding out that this movie is cursed! It's taking me forever to get done and on top of that, I keep having to reshoot and there's still tons I'd want to reshoot! Luckily, if I do say so myself, I work wonders in editing and what I'm working with was crap and now it's not quite so bad. The weather hates me. It rains one day, clear sky the next, rains again, clear sky, rains, clear sky, and I can't ever seem to get this movie shot on a day with clear sky! Well it has all been shot with clear skies, but those shoots happened on days we expected rain. And our schedules keep interfering and it's so hard to get a shoot date. I need to reshoot the scene in the truck, well at least Rob's half because he grew a beard that he didn't have in the rest of the movie :S and I'd like to reshoot my half because I sounded so fake, but I dunno, I don't have time to reshoot everything if I want to shoot Falling Angels. I wish I had a crew. That would make everything go smoother. I need to start Falling Angels. I think I will today. I've been wanting to get started and shoot a scene or two, but timing has been so wrong. In some good news, I rerecorded music for "Waiting" and it sounds perdy good. I'm hoping to vocals done soon. And I want to record music for "The Air" sometime soon too. I wanted to have 3 songs recorded by the end of summer. I've been practicing but I haven't gotten down to recording and now that I've got a week left I'm running around like crazy. I can't wait to get back to Austin so I can actually relax lol. How ironic. Of course I'm not really gonna relax, but at least I'll have entertainment and I won't have to worry about babysitting and whatnot. I think it's so much easier living on my own. I can't wait to get back to Austin and try getting an acting gig again. And I can't wait to be able to get some of my films into some festivals. There aren't any anytime soon that are accepting entries. All of them are within the next month and stopped taking submissions a month ago and the others aren't for months and haven't started accepting submissions yet :\ I'm hoping "Falling Angels" will come out awesome so it'll do well. In other news, I'm having a crazy weird stalker-like relationship lol. Well not "relationship" it's a friendship, but it's weird. Having one-sided conversations and remembering events that never took place. It's crazy but I'm sure I'm not crazy. It's more just for fun and it's actually pretty rewarding. Lol, i am nuts! hahahahaha

Wow, it's almost been a month since I last checked in. Not a lot has happened. Well yeah a lot has happened, but nothing really interesting that I felt the need to run over and type an entry. Plus, I've been pretty busy so I haven't had time to do this. Well I got a "Job" and two pay checks so far (yay!) but it sucks ass (boo!). I'm doing secretary work for my uncle at his therapy clinic or massage parlor, whatever you wanna call it. But good news is, I've started filming my first new short film "MAN EATERS FROM VENUS"! It's gonna rock! It already looks really funny. I've got over half of it edited and stuff. We're gonna wrap up on it Saturday night. Our schedule has kinda sucked. Most of it takes place at night and so the only way to have gotten the entire thing shot in one day would be to shoot from maybe 6 till late or early morning (however you see it). So we've been shooting in 2-3 hour intervals every few days. Rob usually has to be home around 10:30, so to get the night effect, we've been shooting like 8:30-10:30. So far we've had about 3 shooting days and we were supposed to wrap last night, but stuff came up and we postponed till Saturday. Hopefully the movie will be completed by the end of the weekend and I can start planning for the next one which will probably be "The Test". It's not really my favorite, but it can probably all be shot in one day. I'm thinking of casting Kristina as the girl in it since she's coming back today (YAY!). I didn't get a chance to hang out with her when she came down for the 4th :(. But apparently she and Oscar had tons of fun and yes I am jealous! lol I can't believe summer is almost over and I haven't finished a single project! :( So my new schedule is to shoot "The Test" next week and also start practicing and recording a few new songs for the new demo. I'm not focusing so much attention on my music. I wish I could focus much more on it, but it is my weakest area and I feel like I need to actually become good at something and not just mediocre across the board :\ .

I'm changing my attitude from here on out. At least I'm trying. I do believe things suck more when you look at the glass as being half empty. I desperately need to get my act together if I want to salvage the rest of my summer. I need some growing up to do and I think it's about time I did it. There's obviously not much keeping me here in EP, so I'm thinking more seriously about moving to SA after my summer classes are over. I'm getting tired of the way things are and I think I really need a change. I'm gonna dive head first into all my projects and get them done. Speaking of projects, I put up some cork tiles on my walls, I was excited for about a day lol. I don't know what else to say...there isn't much new happening...just wanted to officially start the beginning of my transisition. Lately I've been feeling like I'm back in high school, only this time it's not as much fun. But oh well, like I said, I'm moving on.

So much has been going through my mind lately. Summer school sucks. So far summer hasn't been that great either. I need to start on all my projects :S I haven't gotten around to that and it really sucks cos summer's almost halfway through. I'm starting to wonder if I came back to EP for all the right reasons because it seems like one by one they're all getting shot down. I still haven't found a job. Maybe I should've just gone to San Antonio. I'd at least have a better chance of finding a job. This has been one of those weeks where I just feel like I can't possibly do anything right. I got some postcards from Lela the other day. She's keeping me posted on her Aussie Adventure. I'm so jealous. I just talked to my former suitemate and he just got back from Scotland. I wanna go somewhere. Somewhere far away. I can't wait till this weekend. It's Father's Day (Oh didn't you hear? I'm a father now...right.....) and I want to have a BBQ. That's what summer should be about. BBQs, swimming, tanning, watermelon. I dunno, I want that. Jess is coming down, I miss her. She can be so much fun sometimes. I can't wait till the weekend of the 4th. Kristina is coming down, it should be fun. Hopefully I can get her in a movie. I don't know if I still want to do the scary movie I had in mind for her. I haven't written the script and Oscar has already informed me of how lame the idea is. I'm thinking of changing up another idea for a comedy I had in mind for her. It was supposed to be like a dinner party but maybe I'll change it to a 4th of July picnic type thing. We'll see what happens. I need to get a hold of Rob. He's supposed to be in like every one of my movies (No he hasn't agreed, but I didn't ask if he WANTED to...he's been drafted lol). I wanted to shoot "Man Eaters From Venus" this weekend, but...doesn't look too good. Maybe I can start shooting "The Test" this weekend or next. I need to set up a shooting schedule. Something has to be shot by next weekend. That's my new deadline. I just set it. Justin finally got back to me a few days ago. Says "God Rest You..." should be done by July. I can't wait. I actually got to do some acting there. It was tough, so hopefully it looks good. Speaking of good, I downloaded a song by Kristina's friend Reenee, yesterday. The boy ROCKS! Oh I'm sorry, he's 24, the man ROCKS! hehehehe. I think I'm gonna use his song in one of the movies. I was thinking it'd pop up in "The Test". Hopefully it'll help him get recognized. Well hopefully my films will get enough recognition to give him some recognition. I really need to get started before it's so long sweet summer.

This has definitely been the most interesting weekend EVER! Yeah...Okay, so the D/C concert was Thursday night in Austin and me and Oscar were gonna go up to Austin for it. I wanted Chachi to come along to help me drive and whatnot. She takes her car cos it needs to get fixed and so she was gonna drop it off in SA at the Honda dealership. When we get there, my car DIES, and it is GONE. lol So we had lunch and tried to figure out what to do. We decided to wait the hour for her car to be fixed and have mine towed to my sister's apartment. This was way more complicated than these cliff notes, by the way. We had left EP around 12, got into SA around 2:30 and didn't end up leaving SA until around 6. The concert's doors opened at 6. We got to Austin around 7:30 and Oscar and I made it to the concert around 8. I missed the Get Up Kids :( But I got to see D/C and I took some pix and it was awesome! Chachi stayed with Lori and then she went to spend the nite with Abel and Arturo. After the show, Oscar, his friend Natasha, and I stood in line to meet the band and we did! I was sooo rude to Mike! He asked for a sharpie and I gave him Natasha's and then Oscar and her looked at me and reminded me how we wouldn't get it back and so I tell Mike (i meant to say it sarcastically but it came out mean) "I better get that back!" but eh, I don't think he paid attention. Then I took a pic with him and it looks messed up cos Oscar couldn't get the camera to work and I was telling him what to do and he just snapped the pic with my mouth moving! Then we met up with Johnny, who was a total space cadet, but pretty cool cos he's from TX and he went to UT too and he lived in Jester West. Then we met with Chris and got our 2 minutes to take a pic and get an autograph. Afterwards we met up with Lori at Magnolia's for dinner. I was supposed to spend the nite at Lori's dorm but I couldn't get into the building since it was passed visiting hours and I wasn't signed in as an overnight guest. So it was almost 3 in the morning and I was stranded on campus having to call Oscar and Natasha to pick me up and beg her to let me spend the night at her house. Thank God Natasha is an angel and let me spend the night. Friday I couldn't get a hold of Chachi because she wouldn't answer her phone and Oscar didn't want to do much, but I dragged him and Natasha to South Congress to eat at Zen's and then do some window shopping there. We tried to get to see Saved! but we couldn't find a theater that was showing it and so we went to see The Stepford Wives. Chachi hadn't told me whether or not we were spending the nite again and she never called me and wouldn't answer my calls but apparently she was answering Lori's. I didn't see her at all and that really pissed me off because I had invited her to Austin and I was under the impression that we were going to hang out and I was gonna show her and Oscar all the stuff I did in Austin. But nope, she never came around and she spent the whole time with the other people from EP. Natasha had to go back to SA so we didn't end up spending the nite in Austin and I spent the nite at Jess' apartment in SA. Saturday afternoon, Lori and Chachi are calling like crazy, but I was pretty pissed because Chachi didn't answer my phone calls the day before so I ignored them. I didn't feel any rush to answer them and let them know where I was or anything since they weren't real concerned about me and Oscar the day before. They kept leaving my voice messages saying Xareni was feeling sick and wanted to leave and that her mom wanted her home already. So I felt a little concerned for her and I called her back. Lori answered and said Xareni was getting her stuff ready to go. This was at 2 o'clock. So I told Xareni that Oscar and I had gone to SA because Natasha had to go back and we had been staying at her house. And after learning that, what do you think happens? Xareni is no longer packing to go but tells me they're about to go to Town Lake and not in any rush to leave. Is that cool? Nope. So Oscar and I hang out with my sister, doing some shopping and whatnot to kill time. Xareni doesn't answer my calls when I'm trying to find out when she's leaving Austin, so around 4:30, Oscar and I left in my car (which my dad went up to SA Thursday nite to fix). Once I'm getting into EP, Lori calls and tells me this extremely tall tale about what's been going on. She says Xareni left Austin 15 minutes earlier. (As soon as I hang up with her, Xareni calls and tells me she just got into SA. 15 minute drive? I think not...) Of course Lori's a bad liar and when I ask about Xareni being sick and about her mom wanting her to get home, of course Lori's stories are out of order and impossible. The time frame of the last thing they did (which would have been around 4 or 5 o'clock) coincides with the phone call I made around 2. WTF? She said she told Xareni not to worry about me and Oscar and to leave us in Austin and just go home if she's feeling sick. But of course she told her that while they went to Hula Hut which happened after they went to Town Lake which actually occurred after I had already told Xareni that Oscar and I were in SA. Why the hell would she still be worrying about picking us up in Austin? LIES. I was so disappointed in Xareni. I had just felt like she was one of the best friends I could ever ask for, Thursday when she held me together and got me through the crap in SA. But everything that went on in Austin just reminded me of something Lori would do. And I felt so hurt that she didn't even call me to let me know where she was, or what she was doing and why she wasn't answering her phone or anything. But of course in one of her voice messages today she tried to guilt trip me by saying "Well I thought we could hang out today, but I guess not since you're not answering your phone." And all I could think was "hmmm...this sounds familiar? Oh wait, yes because I called you a MILLION times yesterday so we could do something and you NEVER answered!" I also felt so hurt that she chose Arturo and Abel and hell even Vero over me. And I mean, hey if she wanted to spend time with them like Lori claimed, that's fine, it just would've been nice to have heard that from her. And plus, we never decided on whether or not we were going to spend a 2nd nite in Austin and she never even called me to say that we were. I just felt so hurt. And I found out she drove back from Austin by herself. I felt bad for her, more worried, because that's a long drive, but at the same time I couldn't help but think, ok so where are your friends now? I mean hell, she chose them over me and Oscar and ended up doing a 3 hour drive by herself while she apparently has a fever.

First day of summer school :( sucks. 3rd week in EP just started :( sucks. Still can't find a job :( sucks. Got my new (well used) camera today! :) yay! How will I pay for it? :( sucks. At least I can start shooting my shorts now! Yay! Got a second class tonight at 6, that sucks. I keep listening to Tiziano Ferro's "Tardes Negras" great song. Very emotional and it just feels good to listen to lol. I've been working on the new demo. Got 3 songs with music and hopefully I'm moving up and not staying in the same place. There are 6 songs that are for sure gonna be on the CD and it's a good thing I'm half way done with them. Now to record....not so fun since I'm a perfectionist and I'm afraid of being as unhappy with these songs as I was with the last two set of recordings. My goal to at least have some improvement from the last one. I'm not expecting these songs to be amazing since I've hardly even touched a guitar all year. I was working on some more songs last night to at least get 10 for the CD and I have a bunch of odds and ends lyrics that aren't completed songs and I couldn't get any done. I was so frustrated. Nothing was working and I couldn't think of anything catchy or even come up with a few verses to go with choruses I had already written. Hopefully something will pop into my head and I can get another song or two written to work on. Maybe sometime this week I'll start recording "Waiting". That's the one that sounds more developed so I'm looking at recording that one first. Got to get started with everything before summer passes me by!

Awww, I'm listening to the sweetly soothing sounds of Patrick Park, hoping it'll make me feel better. I had a horrible horrible night. I feel like a complete ass, too. The world's biggest ass and I think, well no, I know it cost me a friend. I wish last night never happened. Especially the drunken part because that just made things ten times worse. I'm just glad I didn't get lost on 6th street or get hit by a car while we were trying to find the bus back. I don't even know what to say about any of it. Last night had its fun moments and then there were its horrible horrible lows that are still making me feel like crap :(

Well, I haven't updated in over a month, oops! Who reads this anyway? lol School's almost out. Tomorrow's the last day! Then finals :S Not too excited about that. I haven't started studying, which I should. But more importantly, tonight is the finale of Friends. I am gonna cry and cry and cry lol. Yes, it's sad. If anyone's curious, I picked up Patrick Park and Sam Roberts' CDs last weekend. Both rock, I highly recommend them. In music news, I've got music back up on my music page. I'm gonna try and revamp this website so it's not so plain. We'll see how that goes. That'll be on my list of things to do this summer. I'll also hopefully be working on some new songs. I've got a ton written, but not really composed or anything. I'm not gonna force anything to come out. I don't want another crap CD like After Hours or On the Rocks. I think I did improve a bit on the second one, but hopefully this one will actually be good. The only number I'm sticking with is 3. Yes, as long as I can record 3 songs this summer, all will be well. I can't exactly say when the next demo will be done, we'll just wait and see. Right now I'm focusing on trying to get scripts written for some short films I wanna make this summer. Of course I've gotta get a camera too :S so I'm just gonna get some cheap mini-DV cam, prolly won't have great image quality, but oh well. These are more for practice. This is where my time and energy will be this summer. I'm shooting for 5 shorts. Hopefully I can get 'em all done. I'm planning on 2 horrors, 1 drama, 1 comedy, and 1 sci-fi. I'm currently looking for a sci-fi script, though. Anyone got any cool ideas that can be made into a no-budget short, drop me a line! lol I've also got to get a job and I'm prolly gonna take a couple of classes this summer :S I dunno if I'll have enough time to do it all. But I'm gonna damn well try! Well, I've got class, but of course, you will be kept posted on the projects as I work on them.

It's 2 AM and I am fuckin' ecstatic! I am now a pro at meeting rock stars! Today was AWESOME! I didn't get to see/meet the Hives but that's okay because I saw Liz Phair's awesome show AND I MET HER! She was sooo nice and I made a dork of myself because I was completely speechless and then I move like less than 10 ft away and she's signing more autographs and what not and I call up my sister and I tell her how Liz Phair is less than 10 feet away and how she's a milf and whatnot lol. She prolly heard but I doubt she was listening. Then we went to see Sam Roberts so fuckin' rocks! And I was thinking about writing a song called "Dear Liz" apologizing for being a dork in front of her lol. It seemed like a cool song anyway. At the Same Roberts show I saw the drummer for the Stills walk by and I had lost Lori so I called her all psychotic telling her to get to the back cos he just went into the restroom. She didn't hear a thing but ran over and we run into the lead singer! Anyway we hung out with them for a bit, they were fuckin' cool! They stood around and chatted with us and took pix. It was cool that they spent time with us. Then we were on our way to see the Hives but there were lines all over the place for them and the people at Emo's started telling everyone to leave because they were wasting their time. So we started walking around and turns out Bowling For Soup was playing so we watched them. Then we stood around looking for the Hives but we couldn't find them. So I went off to look for Pete Yorn's show cos it was at the Blender Bar but you have to be 21 to get in so I went looking for the back exit where I figured he'd come out. We had no luck finding the Hives so I dragged Lori over the back of Blender and guess who walks out the door? Minnie Driver! She had a show there that night too and so we took a pic with her and I told her how awesome she was on Will and Grace, yeah of all her work lol. Then Pete Yorn walked out and we took pix with him and I called up Oscar and gave Pete the phone and he said a few things with Oscar. It was a fuckin' AMAZING night! Anyway, we didn't get any autographs cos we didn't take a pen and we remembered when we were at the bus stop. On the way back, Lori blew up at me because I was talking about how even much more awesome it would have been to have gotten autographs and she kinda threatened not to give me the pix we took with her digital camera. Of course I apologized because I mean I wasn't being pessimistic, it's just that's the way she interpretted it. Things were pretty much tense all the way home and then I asked her if her roommate would be jealous that we met so many cool celebs and she blew up again about how she didn't care about telling anyone because it'd ruin it for her because no one else would care and whatever. I'm just glad to be away from her now, I was getting scared of all the animosity there. I think it's just that we've been around each other so much lately and we need some time away from each other. Okay, now I'm talking to Oscar and Lori just called and seems fine...we'll see what happens....

The last two days of SXSW were pretty cool. On Thursday we saw The Nice Outfit, pretty cool band we got their autographs :D , then we saw Scissor Sisters, also pretty cool and very energetic show, then we saw a.i. who were completely bizarre and completely horrible cos they sang awful songs about aliens having sex and crop circles and I have no idea what. Then we saw onelinedrawing who were fuckin' awesome. Then we took a break cos Lori was tired and then we saw the Stills at Emo's! They fuckin' rocked! I love them! We took a ton of pics. I think I only actually took 2 on my camera cos I ran out of film, but Lori got right up close and took a bunch that are now online :). Last night we saw The Hiss, who were a little bland, definitely not my favorite, then we tried to catch a bit of Patrick Park but we only got to hear like 2 minutes of his last song :( but he was pretty cool sounding and he looked like Pete Yorn so I tore down one of his posters and went looking for him to autograph it but I couldn't find him. :( Then we saw Maxeen, who were okay but not great. Then we saw some country band at the Parish, I need to look up who they were cos they were pretty cool. After them we saw John Vandersplice who was amazing and definitely made my night. Then we saw They Might Be Giants who I think sound like kiddie music for old people. Their songs are complete nonsense! I don't get why the place was packed for them! And people were going crazy and I was like "this song doesn't even make sense!" they were completely ridiculous. I mean their show was good cos it was really energetic, but their songs are just ridiculous... We were gonna see Motion City Soundtrack today, yeah but we went to La Zona Rosa where it was supposed to be and the place was completely empty. Then we went to Emo's to see The Rocket Summer but their show was pushed back to like 3:30 and I was starving so we just came home. But yeah turns out the Motion City Soundtrack show was yesterday afternoon which sucks cos I had written down for Saturday and I had checked the time several times but I dunno, I guess either they moved it from Saturday to Friday or I was just stupid and never noticed :S Well tonite we see Liz Phair and The Hives :D and maybe I can get in to see Pete Yorn but I highly doubt it cos it's a 21+ bar :( we'll see...

Last night rocked! It started off slow cos me and Lori couldn't find the Crowne Plaza where the first show we wanted to see was at. But eventually we found it and we saw Mark Geary, who was awesome. I definitely recommend him. After that we watched Stiffed, who were also pretty cool. Then we saw Matt Nathanson, who totally rocked! He did a cover of a Prince song that goes "starfish, coffee, maple syrup and jam..." and that's all I knew but he wanted the audience to sing along. I was standing right by the edge of the stage and during the song he came over to see if everyone was singing along and I didn't know the words to entire chorus and so I was just like bobbing my head and what not and he looks at me and points at me like "sing!" and then the part i knew came up and so I started singing it and then he sorta smiled and nodded and then walked back to the center stage. It was awesome! I was like "Yay! He pointed at me!" hahahaha, I'm such a spaz! But it's cool cos Oscar loves him and it's just a bit of mean fun to be able to rub that in his face from now on lol. Me and Lori were snapping pix like crazy but they're being real asses about picture taking and they caught her and took her camera away for the rest of the show, but we had already taken several and I had taken several with my camera too. Then we saw Molly, a little bit of Joan Jett (who I think kinda sucks since she's so old now and stood on stage yelling "Fuck Everyone!" like if she's some bad rebel even though she's old and mega rich and has no real reason to be rebeling against anything), and then we saw The Fags. Lori got Molly to sign a poster for their show and then I got The Fags to sign their poster. They were so cool. The bassist for the Fags I believe was drunk since he could barely stand up straight and when I asked for his autograph he was like "are you serious?" and then signed it "Tim says: Blow this!". I dunno, was sensing a little attitude, but he then he took us backstage to get the drummer to sign it since the lead singer had already signed it for me. They were great guys. I intend on getting these little bands to let me use their music for short films later, hehehehe. We'll see how that goes. Later during the week I'll set up a page for all the SXSW pix. Tonight is day 2 and I think it'll rock just as much!

Well I had a very interesting day yesterday. Me and Lori went along with Emily to the airport because she was going back to New Mexico for the rest of the week. We rode the bus and we were sitting in the back and at one stop this girl comes and sits next to us and a lady bug was on her suitcase and she says "Look! A ladybug! That's good luck!" and so we start talking about that because I had never heard about that before. As we're talking, turns out she works for AMS Production Group, the biggest production company in Texas, and I was like "Cool! I'm a film major" and she was like "Well we're always looking for interns!" and starts nudging my shoulder and I was like "awesome!" So she gave me her card and told me to e-mail her about getting an internship. She was on her way to Italy and she said she'd be back next week so I'm definitely gonna e-mail her this week. Last night, Lori and I went to the Hideout to watch "Never Again." I don't want to say about it. It was a very powerful story. I can't say I was happy with my performance, I never am. I saw so many parts where I could've taken it up a knotch. Other than that, I don't know...I saw a few techinical problems with the movie. I guess that was because the movie was put together so quickly. A 2 day shoot and then like 2 days of editing. Anyway, I'm only on screen for a minute or two. Justin got the movie poster for "God Rest You Merry, Gentlemen" online already. It looks great. That can be seen at http://www.justinspence.com/. I can't wait to see what that finished product looks like. Clayton, the guy who helped Justin produce the movie, was actually at the screening last night. He was volunteering for SXSW I guess and he was running the projection booth. That was cool. I think I did a horrible job at socializing with him last night. I was all stressed because I was afraid we wouldn't get there in time and we wouldn't get seats. There were only 90 seats but it didn't sell out. Anyway, tonight me and Lori are gonna check out some bands. Matt Nathanson is really the only I've ever listened to, but it should be fun!

Acting is hard...I got a role in a new movie called "God Rest You Merry, Gentlemen" which is based on an Ernest Hemmingway story. It was interesting getting the role. I originally sent my head shot in a month or so ago and never heard back so I assumed I didn't get the role, but then sometime last week Justin, the director, called me up and asked me to audition for him. So last Sunday I met him and I auditioned and I got the part. I rehearsed with him and the rest of the cast on Monday and we began shooting today. Justin is way cool. He is da shit! lol. Anyway today was a very interesting learning experience for me. I felt really bad though. I showed up a little before 11, which was my call time, and they were still shooting some other scenes. So I had to wait and sit around for a while. When it was time for me to shoot, I was really tired of sitting around and completely out of it. It showed in my performance and after we ran through it, Justin and one of the crew guys were just standing kinda quiet and then he suggested that I take it up a knotch. We kept running through it with everyone giving me advice on how to make it better. I felt like crap. I felt bad for sucking so much and misrepresenting myself and I felt worse because I was ruining Justin's film. They made me run laps and run up and down the stairs so I could enter the room completely distraught and breathless. And the film is set in December and it's supposed to be cold and right now it's definitely not cold so I was running up and down the stars in a big black coat and I was wearing a sweater under that and a dress shirt under that and an undershirt under that. Yes I was very sweaty. So if you see the movie, you can see how sweaty i was in a few of the takes and I was actually very breathless in a few of the shots. I learned to keep faking it, although not quite as intensely as when I was actually breathless. I also had to get all bloodied up for a special dramatic scene I won't spoil for you. ;) Afterwards, Justin came over later and we filmed a little bed scene which was hilarious. I think the movie will be awesome. "Never Again" premiered tonight at the Hideout, but I didn't go see it. I was real tired after the filming and so was Lori. After I filmed the bed scene I felt like going, but instead we decided to stay in tonight. I'm a dork and I made a spreadsheet to organize the lists of bands, times, and clubs for the SXSW shows. Me and Lori bought wristbands to go see the bands playing SXSW this year. It sucks that we can't see so many since most of the shows are at 21 and up clubs. I can't wait! Tomorrow we wrap up "God Rest You..." by shooting a park scene. We originally intended to shoot it on Saturday but it rained so we couldn't. Well I guess that wraps this up, it's spring break and I should be doing something fun...Viva Spring Break!

Today seems like an interesting day. The Passion opens today and I really wanna go see it, but I don't think I'll get a chance :( But Ralph Nader is supposed to be here on campus giving a lecture and whatever. Maybe I can meet him and take a pic with him, it'd be cool to meet a presidential candidate. Eh, i'm stupid. Anyway "Never Again" has a page on the Passion Fruit Video website! You can check it out at http://www.passionfruitvideo.com/neveragain.html/ So check that out and see some stuff about the movie. I don't have much else to say...

Today has been awesome! Well of course I did have to wait an hour in the cold for a bus and the stupid bus driver told me I passed my stop even though I was still 11 blocks from it and I had to walk to the rest of the way in the cold! And I may now have a fever from being the cold today and yesterday when it was drizzling and last night when IT SNOWED! Snow was so pretty....of course I bitched about it being cold. Mostly I was upset because I was gonna BE IN A MOVIE THE NEXT DAY! (That means today if you're confused) Yes sir! I was in a movie today! Yup. I got paid too! Paid very damn well for having 3 lines. It's a short film called "Never Again" and it's awesome. Much more awesome cos I'm in it! I played a gay basher. I was completely vile in it during my 3 lines lol. I feel bad and I hope people don't think that's really me. lol It was made by Passion Fruit Video and you can check them out at http://www.passionfruitvideo.com The director, Alpha, was wayyyy cool. So were the other cast members. I loved them. They dug me. I'm hoping they'll cast me again in the future. I had so much fun and all the crap of getting there was wayyy worth it! The movie's gonna screen at South by Southwest (SXSW) in March and it's going to Cannes! The extended version with an extra documentary part will be going to Cannes. That is awesome! I loved it! I can't wait to see the final product!

I feel like shit right now. :( I think I've gotten a second rejection from the Round About Players and this time I didn't even have to do anything to get rejected! Yup...that's right. They sent me an e-mail last week telling me to go in and talk to them and see about getting in their next play. So I went and all they did was tell me what the play was gonna be about and I was thinking "ok...so does this mean I got a part?" but they said they'd let me know the next day (today) if I got cast in it but it's 5 o' clock and I have yet to hear from them. I'm wondering if I should go by the drama building and check the casting posts but...I dunno I just really don't wanna waste my time if I didn't get cast. God I hope I got cast. I really don't want another rejection from them. I can handle rejection, it's just not real fun that I'm being taunted now. I think I'll just get back to finishing up my readings and then maybe if I haven't gotten an e-mail I'll go by the building and see what's up.

Today has been one interesting day. Tomorrow my first journal entry for Myroad.com is due so if you're interested you can start checking that out. But today I was kinda busy. I had lunch at Applebee's with Susie. It was cool. She was telling me all about Columbia and New York. I've been sooo pissed off that I left some CDs in my mom's cd changer in her car and my dad took them out and didn't put them away in my cd case. One of the CDs was Melanie C's Reason and I love that album and it was a frickin' import and now it's all scratched! God I was sooo pissed off but I did the CD repair thing to it and I played it on my computer and it sounded fine, but today I played it in my car and it was skipping like crazy! >( UGH! I hate this place! I wanna go back to Austin already. Well it'll just be another 2 days here. I'm going back on Thursday. Then I've got my RA interview Friday morning. I hope that goes great. I really want that job. I decided to have my program for the interview be 3 Legged Soccer! It'd be sooo much fun! Hehehehehe. Alright well I've got nothing else to say and I'm not in much mood to type right now.